07 December 2008
Bon Voyage
24 November 2008
Quick Travel Notes
Vaasa is a nice place. It kind of takes the best of both worlds as an intermediary of Kokkola and Helsinki. It has a buzzing, energetic town centre, but it also isn't super large so it isn't as dirty or crowded as Helsinki. I visited my slightly-distant relatives who live seven minutes outside of the city. They have two children, 6 and 4, and the whole family is adorable and level-headed. I will miss them a lot. I took pictures of them but I am not very well versed in formatting this blog, so it is easier for me to make picture posts separate from my regular blogs. So look for the Vaasa pictures sometime soon. And for those of you who have been wondering when I will be putting pictures up of my host family, I am sorry, but I won't be. I don't like them and I don't want to remember them. So that's that.
Oh, I also liked the market-places in Helsinki, where 'vendors' in booths were selling fresh fruit and vegetables and of course--pastries and bread! There are a few big market places like that in America, I've been to one in Pennsylvania, but there certainly are more of them in Europe and I really like them. It sure beats tv dinners.
It is only 3:50pm and it is already super dark here. I only have two weeks left. It has certainly been an experience, but not really a positive one. I just hope I get home safely. I miss everyone.
16 November 2008
Picture Post
Sooo, I decided that I am too lazy to go back to my old posts and insert the relevant pictures--so here are some random ones! Above is a picture of the sign for the school I am working at. Here are some more from September: Outside the school, where the students' bikes are








War Memorial








And from the first snow on Halloween!



That's all I have for now. Enjoy!
14 November 2008
Light and Cold
It was a nice morning. A nice morning to just be.
06 November 2008
The Little American That Could?
So it has been almost a month since my last entry. It's a hard one to follow up, I'll admit. I have endured sickness and being left behind and all sorts of other lovely things that have kept my mind pre-occupied with wanting to come home rather than blogging about my time here. This weekend I am going to Helsinki. Maybe I'll blog about it when I get back, maybe I won't. Heellloooooo despondency, right? Can you hear it in my written voice? Only a month to go... "I think I can, I think I can, I think I can" that worked for Obama, did it not? If he can pull the train of America over a mountain, I can surely live through 4 more weeks here. There is some sarcasm in those last two sentences. I am all over the place. But I'm alive! Hi!!!
13 October 2008
The Curse of European Radio
Turn the dial to any channel, and you will, at least 3 times a day, hear Michael Jackson's "Beat It" and "Girls Just Wanna Have Fun". Think they play "I Kissed a Girl" too often on American Radio? I once heard it played on the same station just 3 songs after it had already been on. I probably hear it five times a day, if not more. And anything from the 80s you won't hear in America because it is too cliche, you will hear here all.the.time. Like "My Heart Will Go On", anything by Michael Jackson, the Backstreet Boys, the first 5 hits of Britney Spears, "It's Raining Men"... you know, things that Mix 103.1 in Anchorage won't even touch!
But, as I said, this bad music curse is not only reserved for bad American music. There is a song that is played constantly by an artist called Anastasia that goes "I can feel you, when I touch you, when I kiss you... I can feel you, from my head to my toes". Really? You can feel this person when you TOUCH them? I am SO happy your nervous system works! I wish there was a disorder where people lost the sensation of feeling, so I could pretend this was a song about someone who was cured of it. But no such disorder exists... there is only one where people cannot feel pain. Oh, but I feel pain. Pain in my ears.
I also discovered that it is very difficult to explain to a European that Americans hate disco. The other week I had a conversation that went something like this:
Me: "It is nice to hear techno music played here. It is nearly non-existent on American radio because it reminds people of disco, so they're afraid to play it."
European: "Afraid... of disco???"
Me: "Yes."
European: "But I thought Americans loved disco!"
Me: "Well, they did... in the 70s. But then around 1979 everyone got sick of it and they had disco burning bonfires and then everyone hated it."
European (looking confused and aghast): "But they must have played some disco in the 80s... just a little."
Me: "Nope. No disco in the 80s. Not in America."
European: *complete disbelief*
Somehow that whole anti-disco movement in America never was even registered as happening in the European mind. In Europe disco just started becoming really popular in the 80s, and that is when a lot of European bands started doing their own disco songs. So while disco and the disco ball is inherently connected to the 70s in America, in Europe when a really popular disco song comes on the radio, you will hear young people yell "Disco! 80s!" And, to an American, that is bizarro world.
Along these lines, the other night I attended a dinner with 10 other young people from 9 different countries (one was another American) ranging 4 continents of the world. It was amazing to hear old American cultural meme phenomena spit at me in 2008 from Kenyans and Italians and Germans. I stepped in the door and was greeted by wagging tongues shouting "Wazzz Uppppppppp!" Just like those annoying beer or football or nacho commercials or whatever they were from a decade ago. And they weren't mocking my American-ness. Honestly, it's just what they do, because now it is a world-wide meme. It is quite amusing to hear these things constantly in conversation amongst young people in an international setting... because in America, if you said any of those old worn-out memes from commercials and songs and movies... you'd probably get punched. So, America, you can be proud of your trend-setter status. But you probably should be shot for the trends you set. And, my friends (who can resist a McCain meme??), in the very Kantian vein, next time you repeat a catchy line from American media, think to yourself "Would I really want everyone in the world to constantly be saying this all of the time a decade from now?" and I bet, most of the time, you'll keep your American mouth shut.
06 October 2008
How I Learned to Stop Worrying and Love Being French
Going swimming helped me realize something, though. I am actually glad I am not one hundred percent Finnish. When I was younger I would lament this fact, because it is more common to be of French ancestry and I liked my "exotic" Finnish ancestry. When people would ask what my background was, most of the time I would just say "Finnish". I also connected more with the Finnish in me because it was much more celebrated and visible compared to the French side of my family. But now I am yearning to go to France and make it more visible and celebrated for myself. Not that I am disliking my time in Finland whatsoever... sorry to say, it is much better run and seems to be a more just society than what I have back in America. And I do like a lot about this culture's peculiarities... how bumping into each other is not anything to feel apologetic or guilty about. How your front lawn is not only for green grass but for an individual statement of landscaping. How you eat berries on top of savory foods, not just sweet ones.
However, I have come to see that there are some things about the Finnish cultural personality that I am not very keen on. For you Alaskans, imagine a country full of all the REI-shopping, New Sagaya-lunch grabbing, Subaru-driving, Kaladi-drinking, Cross-country-skiing, Plastic-recycling blokes and gals in Anchorage. There is a lot of good that comes from living a lifestyle in that demographic. There is *gasp* also some bad. Especially with the slightly older Finnish crowd, the parents and grandparents, there is no such thing as enjoying life. Everything is done with a purpose in mind, there is no such thing as an end in and of itself in any activity. Like I mentioned before, the Finns are obsessed with counting calories and fat intake. They are also obsessed with logging exercise. For someone who used to have an eating disorder, this is highly frustrating. And being someone who basically 'self-therapized' herself out of having eating disorders, I think I know what is important when it comes to eating and staying fit. I am not at all saying the Finns all have eating disorders. I am saying they do not know what is important.
You can't just go on a walk because you'd like to, you go on a walk to get exercise. This is evidenced by the fact that almost everyone employs those Nordic walking poles so they "stay fit" on their walks. You can't just go swimming because it is fun, you go swimming to build muscle. You can't even just go orienteering to hone a skill and enjoy nature; it is all for the absolute purpose of staying fit. In my personal philosophy, one stays fit because it is easier to enjoy life that way. It seems to me that everyone here forgoes enjoying simple activities to focus on staying fit. What's the point? I'm not sure. There is also a culture of "live to work" here that I find similarly repulsive in America. Everyone is very focused on careers and everyone ignores their illnesses to go to work until they are too ill to physically be able to even transport themselves to work, when at last they finally call in sick. These things are quite sad to me. There's never any time or thinking power left to enjoy life after all of this working and running around and counting fat content and logging exercise. I used to only worry and concern myself with most of those things, too. It led to an obsession with perfection that gave me the lovely habits of starving myself and self-hurting. Obviously I was not in balance. But then I embraced my "French side", learned that life can sometimes be about eating food because it tastes good and going on walks because the world is beautiful to observe, and I got the heck over myself. If I could, I would mandate that the Finns start using real butter on their toast and all the adults must go to a water park where there are no lanes for swimming laps but there is a giant slide and fountain, and then go dancing afterward without the aid of alcohol. I mean, no wonder Finland has drinking problems. People just won't let their brains enjoy life so they turn them off and let their bodies do the enjoying (until the morning after)! Uh obviously I am making gigantic, humongous, whopping, enormous generalizations. But they are not unfounded. But I will let these observations rest in this blog post, and get back to enjoying my time here ;)
02 October 2008
Driven
One thing hugely different in Kokkola from Anchorage (and thus I extrapolate to a difference between the US and Europe) is that the streets are so much smaller here, and the sidewalks are so much bigger. I really wish I could upload my pictures (Race sent the wrong camera connector so it might be another two weeks, sorry...), but two lanes of traffic on a main road here is the same size as one and a half lanes of traffic in Anchorage. Two lanes of traffic on a neighborhood street is nearly the equivalent of only one lane of traffic on an Anchorage street. The sidewalks are equally as big as one lane on the road, and in neighborhods there is usually a "median", also the same width as a traffic lane, covered with grass and trees that separates the sidewalks from the traffic. Such small traffic lanes and such low visibility around corners has trained everyone here to be a very defensive driver and always be looking out for what other people are doing--however, everyone I have driven with so far has also been largely prone to distraction and it is a wonder that there are not fender-benders every 5 seconds. It is illegal to talk on your cell phone while driving, yet everyone I have ridden with (I think 5 people) almost always ends up on their cell phone at least once on the road... even if the trip is only 5 minutes long.
The other morning on the way to school there were men in flourescent vests stopping traffic in front of us. "What is going on?" I asked. "They are testing alcohol levels." My host father answers. Sure enough, I see them stop every vehicle and stick a breathalizer into the driver's side window. "Do they have this in America?" He asks. I said no, because as far as I know there is never random unnanounced screening for alcohol that holds up traffic... tell me if I am wrong. "This is good, I think, because there are drinking problems here." My host father says. I think to myself, yeah, but do they really expect to find anyone drunk at quarter to 8 on a Monday morning on a road that goes toward the hospital and school? That seems to me like they are doing it because they are mandated to, but they picked a time when they knew they wouldn't have to deal with anyone actually being drunk.
Also everything here is measured in liters instead of gallons, gas and milk are sold by the liter and it is 1 euro and 44 cents per liter for gasoline. You can do the math. I wonder if that gas tax goes into making the city buses so awesome. Oh, there are also purple curtains you can pull over the windows on the bus if you want to. Every single car I have been in here is a stick shift. Does anyone know why this is? Do manual cars use less gas? Stick-shift driving makes me car sick!! :(
30 September 2008
Outdoor Living
Yesterday night I went orienteering with the parents of a student in the 2E class, and their 17 year old exchange student from Germany. Orienteering is big in Finland, or at least in Kokkola. I honestly do not know if people do this in the states. What happens is you show up at whatever place has been picked at anytime during say, an 8 hour period. They hand you a map of where you are and you go to a table and mark the spots that you need to find, in order, from 1 to 10. This time the map was a bunch of criss-crossing lines that amounted to 4.4 kilometers in all. Usually the check points are contained in secluded, forested areas but sometimes they can abut neighborhoods. The father, before I agreed to go, said that they don't take it seriously... some people do, but they just do it for fun and take their time. Well, that might be true, but I still got an intense workout jogging over rocks and small creeks and fallen trees. Then we ran into farmland with horses on it; we started climbing through the scant fence. It had a current running through it and shocked me. So now I know what it feels like to be shocked by an electric fence. I said “ow.” But it was actually quite fun and now I wish I knew how to use a compass to read maps. Orienteering is also a mandatory part of primary school education, and all of the primary school classes in Kokkola have been going orienteering in one form or another for the past two weeks.
In other, less awesome, news, flus have been going around and I have fallen prey to a small spell of one. I had a fever for a couple hours at the school as well as a bad headache. I took some medicine, came home, and slept for almost 3 hours. Now I feel better but still 'out of it'. I guess it's just that time of year everywhere above latitude 47 in the world.
29 September 2008
Drawings
Computer problems plague me, still. Highly disappointing. I will never complain about GCI service again. It would be a godly connection in Kokkola, Finland. It's strange because everything else here is so much more modern than in America. Their houses, their lights, their heating systems, the fact that every child has a cell phone... I guess they are just more modern in different ways. Less children here have gaming systems. My host family doesn't even have one. Not even a gameboy. That would be totally unheard of in a household of 3 young boys in America, unless you happen to live in some parts of Pennsylvania.
Today in 2E there was a substitute, so when they were finished with their art project she let them draw. I stood over two little boys who were making quite a lot of noise. One boy was drawing fighter jets, helicopters, parachuters, and tanks. Then, after he had finished drawing these things, he would draw guns or cannons shooting them up and would add explosions to the previously unharmed machines and people. There was obviously one side against another. “Who are these people and those people?” I asked. “This is English,” he says, pointing to the blown up plane, “and this is Finland.” He motions at the cannons and men with big guns. I turn to the other boy, who has drawn a parachuter with a magic gun that can spray hundreds of bullets in many directions, and the fire is landing on a group of people on a cliff. I ask him the same question. “This is American,” he points at the helpless cliff group, “and this is from Finland... no, no, from England.” Oookay, I think. There is nothing you can say to these boys. Not “that's not nice.” They don't care if it's not nice. The interesting thing is that I bet if an American 8 year old boy was drawing something similar and I asked who was who, he would come up with something like “That's James Bond and those are the bad guys” or “that's the vampire army and these are the humans.” Americans are very influenced by the media they watch and stories they hear, and are therefore more likely to imagine wars that are not morally ambiguous or culturally biased, but wars that have very definite sides of good and bad. As an American, I can also say that I believe for lots of us, history is vague and confusing, and wars fought in the past hold little meaning or interest. Except the civil war, but even that escapes the interest of most American 8 year olds. But America is very strange in this way, it seems. People in Europe and Asia know about many wars in their country's past, and they carry them throughout their lives, carry the knowledge and emotion of them. Little Finnish boys think of England when they think of wars because Finland was at war with England, albeit briefly, in the 19 th century. And people still talk about it often, and hold resentment toward Russia for dragging Finland into a war it did not want to fight. I think that maybe another reason, maybe even a deeper and more meaningful reason, that American children only imagine fantastical and unrealistic wars is because of our politically correct culture. No child would dare say they were drawing America slaughter Japan, even though it happened, and even if a child did dare to, they would certainly be given a very serious talk or even punished. Maybe that would have happened if the normal teacher was there today, though. I will have to ask what some of the teachers think of this. But I think it is an important lesson nonetheless, that Americans are in a way not allowed to imagine realistic wars, unless they have already been structured in a board or video game... I don't know why this is. Maybe because in those board and video games, who you end up attacking or defending against is a thing of chance, but coming up with who is on what side for a drawing takes intention.
28 September 2008
Two Weeks In
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Bite Me
There are lots of little differences about the food here that combine to make it significantly foreign, but still quite good and not too weird. One thing I miss about America is the cheese, though. The cheese here is all so mild! It tastes kind of like lightly flavored rubber. I even bought gouda cheese at the store and it was extremely mild, though of course not labeled so. That's just what everyone is used to. They also do not sell cheddar cheese. Oh yes, the labels say cheddar, but it all tastes like that gross Kraft American cheese. So to someone who wishes they were a cheese connoisseur, there is a lot lacking over here.
One thing that surprised me the first day I came was when my host mother pulled out a jar of peanut butter. I thought Europeans hated peanut butter! But she had been to the states before, and she was prepared for me. Though the peanut butter sold here is all less oily and sugary. I miss the oil. The Finns also like to point out that they do not like spicy foods or adding spices very much, although earlier today my host father made one of the spiciest pasta sauces I have ever eaten (one of the boys was sure it was really chili). And there seems to have been a national memo sent out that everyone should stop eating real butter. I don't think I've even seen it sold in the stores... or if it is, it is hidden. It is all margarine and vegetable fat here, with a dozen different brands to choose from. I don't mind it much but it is less salty than margarine in the US. Everything is less salty. Even their salt. I'm not kidding! Their salt is less salty... its flakes are less heavy and less uniformly shaped. Somehow this leads to a teaspoon of salt in your soup tasting like 5 flecks of normal USA salt. I don't know why I notice this stuff. It is also amusing to watch the Finns put pineapple in everything that is foreign. Something called “American Pizza”? It is lathered with a bunch of different meats and cheese and pineapple. A burrito in a “Mexican” restaurant? The three staple ingredients are beans, cheese, and pineapple. Not to mention this “Mexican” restaurant has pictures of Native Americans like Sitting Bull and Native American headresses all over the place, mingling with the pinatas and cacti. And yes, this was supposed to be a purely Mexican restaurant. Quite amusing.
As for their overall diet, I've never seen anyone drinking milk higher in fat than 1%, and they eat way less processed foods than Americans do. They also are obsessed with the fat content of cheese and butter, and it is usually advertised in big numbers on the front. I don't miss the fat, but I also don't think it is so important to be obsessed with counting calories in foods that are naturally high in fat. In that way, I guess a lot of their food IS processed... just processed to remove things rather than add them.
There is this one yogurt dish called melja made by danone that is sooo good, it is better than ice cream to me. But then there is this other kind of yogurt dish called viili that is like stringy sour yogurt and I did not like it. They also like to eat this kind of super dark licorice that I did not enjoy the taste of one bit. And they have more boring ice cream flavors. Well, I think that is enough espousing about food for one night. I didn't realize I had accumulated so many opinions on foods here already!
23 September 2008
School Shooting
Today we were called in to the teacher's room right after lunch. At that moment, about 200 kilometers to the south, a gunman was shooting up his school, a vocational school. I cannot get much more information, 9 people have been confirmed dead now and possibly the gunman, too, who shot himself. I have no access to the internet and my host father isn't watching the news on tv. I believe this is only the second time ever something like this has happened in Finland, the first time it was at a secondary school about a year ago, I have been told. It is not all over the television. After we were told about it a teacher turned to me and started asking about lesson plans for next week. My thesis about most Finns being unwilling to talk about bad things is hard to determine through personal relationships, but it seems to have some truth to it on a national scale. In the least there is certainly a difference between American and Finnish reactions to tragedies... Americans would have the news of it all over every basic channel and radio station, and everyone would be talking about it a lot. Especially if it was happening less than 200 kilometers away. Now the television has turned to a press conference about the shooting—although it is being reported on now, it still is markedly different than how American television would report it. It is a paneled press conference, with specific people reading prepared remarks. And this is happening about 3 hours after the shooting took place. In America, there would probably be journalists interviewing shocked and horrified witnesses and anyone else who so much as had an opinion about it, there would be video footage rolling nonstop of fellow students screaming and crying, terrified and angry. Both ways of handling the tragedy seem strange to me—one too business-like, the other too sensational. But I don't know how I would direct media to deal with it. How does one deal with something so horrible and senseless?
A teacher also said that it was 'big news' last year when the first shooting happened, because no one expected it to occur in Finland. “We have no locks on our classroom doors, no sealed gates, nothing by the way of security,” she said, “there wasn't need for it. Maybe that's changing.” It might be that I have come to admire the trust and respect for students in one of the last and dying systems where teachers trust to leave their students unsupervised... it may be that some of what I want to bring back to America are values that it cannot afford to employ, values that are going to start being swept away in Finland because the world is afraid of youth with guns for good reason. But why are there so many murderers among us? Why so many murder-suicides at places of education??!
17 September 2008
Joo
I have also noticed that there is less chivalry here than in the states. I hope this is not an effect of a greater amount of political and social equality between men and women (the president of Finland is a woman). But men do not open the doors for me here, and I have not seen them do it for any other woman. A few times I thought they were, but then it was just that they were opening the door slowly, and when I walked through it first everyone looked confused, including me.
Today was Wednesday, and every Wednesday there is an all-school assembly. Every other Wednesday there is a story read out of the bible and a bible song performed by a Lutheran minister. I couldn't understand anything because it was all in Finnish, though.
Oh, also at Hollihaka the teachers lead every single activity for their classes, except the immersion classes sometimes have a separate teacher come to do the Finnish lessons. But art, gym, cooking, library, all of these activities are organized and led by the children's same teacher.
16 September 2008
Rules
Today when I was working with the 1st graders, they were acting up and would not cease until I said “Remember one of the rules is being polite, and what you are doing is not polite, you are not following the rules.” I don't know if that would work with 7 year old Americans. It would be interesting to find out more about the disciplinary system in the higher grades here... there doesn't seem to be one in the elementary aside from contacting parents and having meetings with them, and that I think is not so different from American elementary schools, at least in Alaska.
15 September 2008
First Day at School
Secondly, between every learning session, maybe 3 or 4 times a day discluding lunch and recess, there is a 15 minute break where the children play outside and most of the teachers gather in the lounge and have coffee and tea. It creates a mental break that I think is great for both teachers and students, but especially teachers. This also creates a space of community and communication for the different teachers.
Then there is the issue of supervision. Americans are either too paranoid, too distrusting, or both. There is not truly any difference between a hyper Finnish 8 year old and a hyper American 8 year old. But an American would never leave a class of them unsupervised. Finnish teachers, however, do not mind leaving their classes unsupervised if there is something that needs to be attended to elsewhere. They let the class know where they are going, and what the children should do when they are gone. They also do not have a panic attack if the children did not listen to their instructions, they don't expect them to be as good without supervision as with, and if things have gotten too out of hand for their liking they tell the children so. But they also can trust the children enough to not kill each other... and at least today I observed most of the children actually doing the work they were told to when the teacher was out of the classroom.
There also is a greater emphasis on technical skill, and I believe it is in 3rd grade when they start to go to what we Americans would call shop class. All classes also do 'textiles' at least a few times a year it seems, which I think is mostly sewing. The school's Headmaster told me that “We believe the human is more than just a brain, so it only makes sense to work with the hands in school.” Today outside the door I saw a 9 or 10 year old hammering on iron for the shop class.
As for more traditional lessons, the 1st grade lesson book on letters also had things to color on almost every page. At least when I was a child in school, lessons were lessons and coloring time was coloring time. For the younger children I think it makes sense to mix them, it provides a mental break, and incentive to finish the work on the page, and a subtle association of enjoyment is added to such lessons.
Finally, here the school has way less bureaucracy. It has grades 1 through 6 with about 300 students in all. The headmaster deals with things like what chairs to buy, what heating companies to employ, and he involves all the teachers and sometimes the parents in those decisions. This is, of course, much work for him, but it also creates a feeling that this is our school, and I think that would foster better community and respect for the institution.
13 September 2008
First Day
*It was.
09 September 2008
Pre-Departure Blogging
In the spring (of 2008) I got an e-mail from the philosophy department (for I am a philosophy major) linking me to the IE3 website (http://ie3global.ous.edu/). I immediately became interested and scanned their available internships. I was interested in a few--but only felt like it would be fair to apply for one particular one because I had actual experience in the subject--so I decided to apply to teach in Kokkola, Finland. Technically, this internship is about teaching English, and I don't have experience in that. But I do have experience in teaching, and hopefully that will count for something.
If you click on the link above, it will take you to a new, improved website that looks nary like the one I visited back in the spring. Another surprise, if you go so far as to look at the specifications for the Kokkola internship, is that they say Kokkola will help you find a dormitory residence for a fee. I, thankfully, gratefully, appear to be the last intern to be given free housing for this internship. It was difficut for them to "find" a host family, and I was given the possibility of having to pay for a shared dorm room until nearly the last minute. My host family already seems so friendly and accomadating, though, I wonder why it was so difficult for the school district to find a willing family, and it is sad to see that either IE3, or the Kokkola school district, or both, have decided to give up on trying to fanagle free housing for the interns. Oh well, Lucky Me!
So, I apply for the internship and get it, first with another person who they also gave it to which ended up transferring me from working with the High School to working with the Elementary School. The other person who was awarded the internship dropped out, but I am still going to work at the elementary school, Hollihaka (http://www.hollihaankoulu.kokkola.fi/info/english_frameset6_immersion.htm). I am not sure what to expect as far as English comprehension goes in the elementary. I am taking some of my favorite childhood stories, and maybe some short educational films if there is an opportunity to use them to good effect.
The biggest obstacle so far has certainly been UAA. Internships are kind of like enigmas. Hardly anyone does full time internships, so there is nothing in place for them to work. Never mind the fact that more people would do them if there actually was a way to... the university is generally content in telling itself that no one wants to do them so they don't need to set anything up for them. I managed... after a lot of work from myself and one great lady named Jill... to cobble together 12 credits, although 3 of them are only going to be counted as incomplete at the end of the semester until I do a community service project in Anchorage. The professor I am working with on the other 9 is actually quite good, but there are still "issues" to be worked out with Hollihaka because of the fact that UAA is not set up for this. My professor doesn't want me working full time, because she also wants me doing other projects that focus on the community in Kokkola at large. They are very lofty and challenging projects, but if it works out I am looking forward to attempting them. Needless to say, I will probably be presenting a proposal to someone or other at UAA to try to get a system that provides actual support for a 12 credit internship in the works. It is truly sad that UAA pats itself on the back for giving its students the opportunity to go abroad and do internships, yet when someone actually attempts to do just that--it is more than a pain to get it done. Beleive me, I have spent tears and many hours of frustration and confusion about whether or not I could get the 12 credits without having to write a bunch of 15 page papers about topics that might not even have anything to do with the internship at all on top of working full time. I know this is quickly turning into a UAA-bashing post, but honestly, if you have ever heard anything bad about UAA-- it's true. I am hoping that maybe when I return I can help change something at UAA for the better, but I won't get my hopes up.
As for my emotional state, I have somehow forgone the feeling of anticipation. Maybe it has been washed out by the rush to get credits and really the rush of everything. The director in Oregon told me that as of the end of August, my internship was the only one (for Europe) that hadn't been sorted out. I'm leaving in 2.5 days and it still isn't! But talking with the headmaster and the mother of the family I will be staying with by e-mail has at least given me a sense of comfort and security. Here's to the next three months! Next time I post I'll be writing directly from the old country! I'll let you know if I see any Moomin Trolls.
Signing Off,
Summer
